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Back in Hong Kong

 And I'm back in Hong Kong. It's a long story. Someday I'll tell it. For now, I've been recently inspired to write poetry like stories. The first is my journey to figure out my racial identity. For the record. I am a biracial- white and black American woman. I was adopted by a white family and grew up in a predominantly white town, and for most of my education from K-12, I was either the only brown child in the school or one of 2. Later, I tried to identify with my black side and realised I couldn't. The best way I can describe it is to imagine a white person going into a black community and trying to be black. Who am I describes that journey from that point to where I am now. Who Am I? Who am I but a scared child in a big, big world A small brown life surrounded by a sea of white, looking to connect They smile, they welcome me into their home. They tell me I belong here. Who am I, that small brown life looking for my place in the white puzzle Are you like me? Will ...
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A Screeching Halt

About a month ago, I got some really hard news.  My birth mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer.  They estimated she had 6-7 months to live.  The best way I can describe finding that out was like a car coming to a screeching halt. Prior to this, I had lost friends and a colleague to cancer, a friend to heart failure and grand parents.  None of them were easy.  Some were a little easier to get through because I knew it was coming....old age for example.  But with my birth mom, she's too young to be dying and we're blood.  I feel like I'm one of the lucky ones.  I was adopted.  I met my birth mom and relatives and over the years thanks to facebook, I've been able to stay connected. But I've taken so much for granted.  I just assumed that she would be around until she was old like my grandpa had been.  He was nearly 100 when he passed.  He had a very full life.  I'm sure she has too but she's still got more years t...
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The Story I need to Tell

I always try to be positive when I post.  That's why there are months where there was nothing.  Because during that time I didn't know what to say. Even when I did post, I tried to only post positive things but I left a lot out. I think now I'm finally at a place where I can say what I feel and I can say what was really going on. A little background. If you have read previous posts, then you have some background.  I think it all started from my first trip to the beach in Thailand. I fell in love with the beach. I felt like I belonged there. So I started praying about moving there.  My prayers lasted two years. I needed a job to go.  The options were limited. I really thought this is where God was leading me and I just needed to be patient. After 2 yrs, I landed a job at Montessori(I had no training but was interested).  The pay was low. The rent was high and I was leaving a job I loved. But I thought this was where I was supposed to be.  So I was wi...
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Welcome to China

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   Well I've moved to China.  To a nice little place called Zhuhai.  While getting here was a long process with lots of little obstacles, things are finally starting to feel more settled.    I have a nice two bedroom apartment in a nice neighborhood not far from school.  Only draw back has been the typhoons.  We had a very severe one during the first week of school that caused a lot of damage and a 2nd one less than a week later that thankfully wasn't as bad.  This week we are off school yet again for severe rain fall. Seems weird to get time off for rain when Thailand had rain almost daily for months,    I work with a nice bunch of people who have been very friendly and helpful. The school environment is much happier than the last place I was in.  I no longer dread being at work. I'm also back doing learning support which is more my passion. 10th anniversary of my school part of my neighborhood my building ...
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